Hating university

God i hate university. The primary reason i know is that i'm just too fucking old for it. I am 24, and everyone are between 18 and 20. Bascially fresh out of highschool (and still acting it!), and there i was very old and mouldy out of highschool, in fact, i really have finished tertiary school apart from this one last god damn paper.

I know older people must have looked at me when i was a young kid like that and thought, "God, that girl is ridiculous" and i probably was as i acted just like those kids, escept back then i thought i was something else. Ohh yeah, i was way cool and full of worldly wisdom! But, now i look at those kids and i wince. They walk around in their fucking annouying little cliques and ugly fashionista clothes, talking about either crap or somthing very vain but potentially insightful, and they think they've discovered something. They think because of this one little puny thought about their society or world that now they understand the world. More then others, and they're just so fucking cool because of it. So, they would go and act the way they feel. Yes, i am cool, cold in fact, and i am thinking about the world, i see the shit that it is, i am a loner so i have to act it, portray it. Yep, i am a university student thus i am PART of something, something intellectual, something that it totally the future of the world, of New Zealand. We deserve respect because of this. And yep, my life is pain, just check out my solemn face and the cigerette in my hand. Ohh my god, please, don't try TOO hard to externalise yourself. Because we are really ALL paying attention to you, and give SO much of a shit.

That's why i hate university, young kids trying so hard to be noticed, to have character, to be wierd in some sense. When really the one understanding they all lack is that really, no one gives a shit. Everyone has characer, and you are one of an insignificant many. So just act normal, be normal, act young (ie be more curious and less smart) and get over yourself!